It is after midnight but I wanted to report on my 15000 steps completed yesterday - was a good day! Now I need to keep this up and walk myself thin because I bought a skirt today thinking it would be loose on me but no - I will need a couple of weeks walking to get back tot hat - how quickly weight piles on the middle at my age.

So today (after a decent sleep) I should also cope with at least 1ok - here I come!

Well it is now Wednesday and I am pleased to report that I have completed 30000 steps since Monday - now this is good. I am also doing my best to control my calorie intake - I read that for 1 calorie it takes 7 steps to use up!! So I need to keep this up but already I feel more positive and the exercise is the real secret of success for me......so wish me well!

Well told you I would report back - and here I am after a successful (if expensive) Waitrose shop. I felt good deciding that I didn't want the chocolate aisle or the biscuit of cake aisle and I bought some good food for us all without the rubbish. Just as well because the cost of food has shot up eh? Anyway I have my packet low cal soup for lunches this week and stoneground bread and green tea and other goodies - I want to start yet again to discipline my eating habits......

Back again - have been having a good talking to myself.....why do I say in one breath I have to get off chocolate and then deliberately have a bar with my mid morning coffee? I looked up the web to see if I could find some inspiration and found a book that could brainwash me into coming off chocolate - it had many positive reviews that told of people who were now in control and are able to shop without buying chocolate. Now should I need to buy a book or join a slimming club to lose weight? No I should apply what I already know in depth.

Even thinking about the effect on me of carrying too much weight - tight jeans digging in at my middle; sore feet that hate carrying extra weight day after day; the horrible feeling when I see people who do control their weight and compare myself to them; the hatred of myself when i catch a vision in the mirror - do I need to go on?

So I have had a lovely weekend so far and because I have been out more than normal I need to shop for some groceries - I will go and I will stay in complete control and choose what I want - and what I do not want - I want some fruit and healthy stuff - but it needs to satisfy and I don't want stuff that will be lovely for a moment and make me feel negative 5 minutes after eating it - so no chocolate?......well I will report back later!!

Hello again - I have decided to do something positive and get writing again - blog myself into doing better than I have done recently.

Over a month now until we are off to Eastbourne for the Rotary weekend and then within a week of that off to Spain again - so how good would I feel if before then I managed to shift a few stubborn inches?

Funny they talk about mood foods and I often deny it but this week I have wanted sweets so much and when I buy them I know I shouldn't but I do and they taste so good....sound familiar.

I must try better and to help me I will blog!

Bye for now x