Back again - have been having a good talking to myself.....why do I say in one breath I have to get off chocolate and then deliberately have a bar with my mid morning coffee? I looked up the web to see if I could find some inspiration and found a book that could brainwash me into coming off chocolate - it had many positive reviews that told of people who were now in control and are able to shop without buying chocolate. Now should I need to buy a book or join a slimming club to lose weight? No I should apply what I already know in depth.

Even thinking about the effect on me of carrying too much weight - tight jeans digging in at my middle; sore feet that hate carrying extra weight day after day; the horrible feeling when I see people who do control their weight and compare myself to them; the hatred of myself when i catch a vision in the mirror - do I need to go on?

So I have had a lovely weekend so far and because I have been out more than normal I need to shop for some groceries - I will go and I will stay in complete control and choose what I want - and what I do not want - I want some fruit and healthy stuff - but it needs to satisfy and I don't want stuff that will be lovely for a moment and make me feel negative 5 minutes after eating it - so no chocolate?......well I will report back later!!